Attorney, minus 3.7%

"Why do we fall? So that we can learn to pick ourselves up." - Batman Begins

My total scaled score on the California bar exam was 1366.38; passing scores must be above 1440. In terms of percentages, this means that I got a 68.3% when I needed 72%!

3.7% stood between me and my license to practice in California! 3.7% close to conquering the most difficult bar exam in the nation. If I had gotten 6 more multiple choice questions and 10 more points on an essay I would be an attorney right now!

But I'm not as depressed as I thought I would be. For sure, when I found out on Friday, I was a mess. But today, I am renewed with hope. Frustrating as the score may be, it is also encouraging to know that I am capable of passing. I know a lot of you had little doubt that I would pass, but I was seriously doubting my own intellect.

I also know there's a reason for all this. I know retaking the bar will make me stronger, more humble and in the end, I'll know the law better than I would have had I passed the first time around. I was very tempted to hide the fact that I didn't pass to everyone (although that would be really hard to do), and I was tempted to make up excuses as to why I didn't pass. But I realize that is counter-productive. I realize that I have to get over myself, just pick myself up, study hard, and kick some serious a*s.